I hate everything and everyone.

Posted by Thomas J. Brown at 0254 hrs

I hate everything and everyone. I hate my life and I hate everyone that claims to be my friend. I have no friends, only acquaintances. Maybe that's why no one finds me attractive. I don't know, I guess I'm just a born loser. No one holds empathy for me. Oh sure, I can find sympathy, that's easy. What I need is empathy. Fuck me. I'm half drunk and I feel like shit; both physically and emotionally. I feel betrayed by people I never imagined would betray me. I feel very, very alone. No one here understands me. No one here has even the slightest idea what's running through my mind, although some people claim to know me inside and out. Not that you'll ever read this, babe, but you don't know me at all. Fuck me and fuck Halloween.

See, this is why I can't ever own a gun; it's dangerous to my personal safety. Sometimes I think I should be around people. Sometimes it seems like that's the solution. But I've found that it's not the solution and that people suck. Anyway, I needed to tell someone how I feel. Maybe I need new friends. Maybe I should stop longing for old ones. To quote a song that has nothing to do with my current situation, "I hope I die before I get old."