Hmm. Things are odd. I’m not sure how I feel about Her anymore. I’m changing again and as much as I should like what the outcome is supposed to be, I’m afraid. I stayed out until 5a last night talking to this girl I like. We sat on her couch cuddling. She told me that I haven’t got a chance (these are not her exact words, however). I’m not sure how that makes me feel. I think I was sort of counting on her to help me get through the summer. I’ve been in my parent’s basement all summer for the second year in a row. At least she’ll still cuddle with me.

I’m not convinced that I’ll ever find someone who’ll want me. Or appreciate me, for that matter. I thought of a cool idea for a poem today, so I’m going to try to work on it at work tonight. I think it will help me remember what things were like when I was with Her. I’m not sure if that’s what I need. I think what I need is to get Her out of my system. When She and I were together I felt like a million bucks. Now I need to spend and spend until there’s nothing left. I’ll always save a little, though. A nest egg, if you will. What a stupid metaphor; I’m an idiot.

Today’s forecast: Warmer temperatures with the possibility of showers.